Love is indeed about egos. I want you and you want me to please me and you. Dependency or interdependecy? Are our egos hundred percent or 50 %? Do we need to add on or do we surplus? One piece of wood can carry 50 pounds and two pieces of wood attached can carry 125 [...]

it just dawned on me how much hardcore music is actually marching music. The power and masculinity of scrorching guitars march us towards the negativity we are trying to face or scream away. There are so many lyrics on positivity in the youthcrew scene, and many on negativity in the screamo scene (yes Paraksit ). [...]

I embraced a mistake called imagination. merely imagination and I knew it beforehand. but what took me aback is what comes right in front. full circle running around
// pick it up where I left it. come and see the beauty of what you left behind. a voice speaks but rather bleakish. I’m not down and [...]

“Alone in a crowd like a jailhouse, but I am reaching for something real.” Adventures aside tell me the same story. I cannot hide or run away. I love an authentic life too much. Society tells us to make our choice, but nobody is making a choice. I want to break through the hoax and [...]

While waving goodbye to Paraksit, Cintamani and Ray, I turn on my radio. The signal is bad but getting better when I drive out of the tunnel. The first word I hear is “desire”. The signal is still bad, but the voice continues “we are our desires”. And so I drive out of Arnhem where [...]

It’s all imagination.
Break out of the cycle before it breaks us.
Living like animals; work, eat, sleep and defend.
The more choices we face in live, the more we start to imitate. Do we know what is real? We say to choose our own lives, to do what lies in our best interest. Does that explain why [...]